Emotionally unavailable

You humour me 

Stuck that knife straight through me 

Who knew you could’ve fooled me? 

If I could do it all again, I’d wish you were dead

Cut you out my heart, fill the missing part 

You played the game of the hearts 

You thought you’ve torn me apart 

Guess who’s now falling apart? 

You were unavailable from the start 

Feigned your love and that black heart

Your soul’s so dark it tainted my art  

You cried fake tears, do you really feel so smart?

How does it feel now that your heart bleeds? 

I ran to you because my love was true 

Yours was a ruse, with that ugly point of view.

Right your wrongs

I did you wrong, I hold my cards up

You did me wrong, that was kinda f*cked up 

My pain concealed me 

I feigned you completely 

If I could take it all back, I’d leave you discreetly

Two wrongs don’t make a right 

Though two hearts could still push on and fight  

The Sad Truth

Hurting, not because of the lies you told 

Hurting, not because you took my gold 

Hurting, not because you made me fold 

Hurting, not because you loved blindfold

Hurting, not because I cried tenfold

Hurting, not because you hurt my world 

Hurting because…

I 

   Still

          love

you

Seven seas

Waves crash like wind on the sand

Anything to get me by

Life has me wondering why

Wild animals seem so nice

This is me waving goodbye

I meant it

When I said you’re the best part of my day 

 I meant it 

When I said your smile lit up my face 

I meant it 

When I said you’re my greatest coincidence

I meant it 

When you said you loved me 

You lied further than the sea 

When you hugged me without fright 

You stole more of my light  

When you kissed me goodnight 

You locked my lungs airtight 

You lied with your eyes

Your lips told a story 

You stole all my glory 

When I said I loved you 

I wish I lied too.

Un-loving you

Loving you, I thought I’d never do.

I then found myself always thinking of you.

You caught me unknowing.

Let me catch feelings without a throw in.

Always gave you my all.

I cared for you, picked you up at every fall. 

You made me blind to your truth.

You fungus looking fruit.

Intuition was so true.

I’m so glad I saw through you.

How do you move on from a love so “true?” 

A strong connection, you never wanted to lose. 

A happy bubble, you never wanted to move. 

Losing you, was the first thing to do.

Submerged by the hurt, I could hardly see-through.

Letting my heart hurt was hardest thing to do.

Is it really true? 

Does absence make the heart grow fonder? 

Should this still be the case when your heart’s down under ?

My love for you sometimes grew stronger. 

I remind myself that my love for me will never make me ponder.

Love should never make you wonder.

I had to break my own heart to find peace within that blunder.

Peace

Cat’s got my tongue 

I could barely breathe 

I lost all control 

Is this my kind of peace? 

Chaos that leads to weeps 

Heartbreak and misery  

No blame, it was down to me

Is this my kind of peace? 

Uncontrollable words escape my mouth 

Every tangible letter makes you scream out loud 

Words diagnose the toughest disease 

Is this really my kind of peace? 

I’m sorry for all the pain that I caused

It was never my intention to be the bane of it all

I pray you find that inner peace

That inner child like happiness

A special time when you were once at ease

That would really be the true peace.

Side stepper

I sometimes wonder what I loved about you.

It definitely weren’t your words or  the things that you do.

You never consoled or relayed to my soul.

You always did wrong through the midst of it all

You cracked jokes at the expense of my pain.

Though you never called me out of my name.

You were sweet and kind. 

Never vulnerable or wild.

You were too picky, never chose a side.

Have your cake and eat it? 

That was never going to ride. 

    Pick a side, pick a side 

You’re clueless with your wants, never followed your needs.

Is this what you worked hard for? 

That is sad indeed. 

I gave up waiting and chose you a path.

In choosing me, I left you in the past. 

I guess that’s why they call it freedom.

Getting rid of you at last.

Words

I talk too quick 

Faster than a blink

Words escape my mouth , before I even think 

Regretting every word that escaped these lips

Hit these words with the coldest whips. 

When will I learn my lesson?

To speak softly without aggression. 

Words flow like an obsession

Surely, this cannot be depression

In need of divine intercession

That’s how I’ll end this session.

Someone wholesome

Why’s it so hard to find someone wholesome?

A giver who’s hardly a taker.

Definitely not a faker.

A big hearted person, never blind to your needs. 

Slays like a lion, they’re never a sheep.

Fights for your love because no one could ever Compete.

Caring and sweet, the greatest person you’ll ever meet.

Loves your beauty, even if you have a little booty.

Despite the above, your soul captures their heart. 

Kills anyone who even tries to tear you apart. 

Kisses your forehead, your cheeks, your thighs. 

So truthful, they don’t even have to lie. 

Someone to cherish, and hold so dear.

Talk about life as they hold you near.

Where are you, in this life of sins?

Will my soulmate find me and just let me win!?